Melancholy of a Helpless Moron

dark clouds are clogging your Thursday morning,

everything left was damaged by the struggle;

across these heavy fumes, you keep on gasping,

stranded in a razed land where living is a hurdle…

you thought that dying would be so much better,

alone with corpses brought by the horrendous past;

the trace of gunpowder leaves your hope dimmer,

and the smell of blood has taken your will to last…

but then again, time will just let the heavens pour,

like the very last drop of tear in your weary eyes;

let this battlefield be cleansed and haunt you no more,

no matter how hurt you are, later, you’ll soon realize…

there will still be wars out there waiting to be fought,

another day in the open with morals waiting to be taught…

ikaw ang malamig na simuyo sa aking gabi,

na nagbibigay init sa aking mga paggunita;

parang mga salitang ayaw magmula sa labi,

ngunit sadyang ninanais na isulat ng mga tala…

sa’yo nagmumula ang aking ngiti sa kawalan,

habang nagtataka sa akin ang buong mundo;

tanging ikaw lang ang naiisip na takbuhan,

kahit na ang pag-iisip ko’y sinasadlak mo sa gulo…

ikaw lamang ang matagal ko ng hinihintay,

kahit na mga alaala mo’y sa aki’y nagpapanggap,

ikaw man ang sanhi ng malungkot kong paghimlay,

ngunit ‘di ako titigil, makanakaw lang ng isang sulyap…

mas pipiliin ko ang maghintay kahit lubusang masaktan,

kaysa mahulog sa panaginip na kathang-isip lamang…

if you’d ask me, it was just pure hell,

a week with nothing but numbness;

everything’s shut, even i can’t tell,

a life left in shivering cold and nothingness…

i just knew again i’ll end up lying on the floor,

questions haunting and asking what went wrong;

but then, i thought there’ll be something more,

like another undying melody of an epic song…

I just know for myself I wouldn’t commit;

and never will I quit something dearest to me;

please don’t blame me, to this I still submit,

everything around you that brings so much glee…

now, I’m much more decided to give it all,

no one’s settling for a setback, no one’s settling for a fall…